Resistance to Heroes, and the Development of My Pantheon

May 19, 2008

I never had heroes when I was a kid. I was proud of it. It frustrated the teachers tremendously when I refused to name heroes. After much pressuring, I would give in and say my default, that my parents were my heroes. Now I have many heroes, but developing them was a long and difficult path.

Part of my resistance to heroes was my view of history as partially flawed. The details and errors of man are often washed away by sychophantic historians. I’ve had a few history teachers who you could see the sex oozing in their description of long dead historical figures. (Never the less, I think that History is one of the most important subjects to learn, and it is one of my personal favorites.)

The other part of my hero-resistance was from reading the novel Dune when I was in third grade. Dune is in part a parable against saviors. This book always cautioned me against subduing my own talents and judgments in service to a leader.

These two viewpoints caused me to live for the longest time without heroes. Eventually, I realized my apprehension was unfounded. And I can benefit from admiring heroes by using them as models for ideal behavior. Seeing this, I have developed a pantheon of historical figures who I have chosen as important to me, and representative of my personality. I now have a collection of portraits above my desk of these heroes.

The first is Nikola Tesla, one of the fathers of the modern electrical world. Genius is the fortune of aligning knowledge and passion. Tesla was a perfect alignment. I have the pleasure of owning a book of his patents, and whenever I wish to be humbled, I go and look at the quantity and quality of his body of work. He was not without flaw however, and he had a terrible business sense that left him in destitution at the end of his life. I want my passion and knowledge to be so synchronous.

The second is Charles Lindbergh. He was the Neil Armstrong of his time. So famous that they named dances after him. I want to be famous like Lindy.

The third is Alexander Graham Bell. My admiration for him is not actually for his invention of the telephone, but for his work on the problem of flight. He was a contemporary of the Wright brothers, and he took a different development path to making airplanes. He ended up building huge tetrahedral kites to experiment with the dynamics of lift and control. You can see some pictures of these gigantic kites here. I love his affinity for experimentation.

The fourth is Amelia Earhart. Like Lindbergh, she was a daring pioneer of the most cutting edge transportation of the time. She pushed the envelope and was famous the world over. That, and she defied the sexism of the time. I would like that bravery.

The fifth is Peter Drucker. Drucker invented modern management theory. Many people still try and run companies like they’re factories or farms, with autocratic styles and rigid structures. Drucker pointed out we are now in the age of the Knowledge Worker. Making our transition from knowledge, not resources being wealth, is so mind-blowingly huge, we haven’t figured it out yet. I would like to be able to describe our world as eloquently as he does.

The sixth is Buckminster Fuller. Bucky taught me how to think again. There was a time when I was severely depressed, and one effect of that depression was a curtailing of my mental capacity. I could only recall events from a week ago, and any challenging thinking eluded me. At some point, after my recovery, I began reading Synergetics, which was a geometric system that he developed over the course of his career. It is extremely thick, but I finally understood it. As a result, I can visualize complex geometry in my head, and it effects all of my thinking. Fuller, was the first of my recovered heroes. He was so optimistic for the world, he could see our potential and did what he could do to foster it. I would like to do the same.

4 Responses to “Resistance to Heroes, and the Development of My Pantheon”

  1. Jason Says:

    It’s interesting to see who inspires you now. I must say I don’t think I’ve ever had any inspiration from history. I have read things about Turing and Torvalds and Djikstra, but they didn’t inspire me. I guess if pressed I would say Feynman is someone that interests me. Perhaps I’ll pick up his book while I’m getting a copy of Synergistics (inspired by your interest in the book).

  2. primevector Says:

    I don’t know if Synergetics is still in print. You can probably get a copy from the Buckminster Fuller Institute. But I know there is an online copy here.

  3. Michael Johnson Says:

    Regarding systems theory — I suggest you read “On Systems Analysis” by David Berlinski.

    It could save you a lot of wasted effort.

  4. Ludo Says:

    nice sharing… hv u read Critical Path from Bucky? Great read. Bucky was at some point in his life so depressed that he had decided to commit suicide. A vision of his purpose for humanity is what stopped him at the last minute… it is strikingly nice that Bucky was in turn able to contribute to your seeing another side of life… I personally feel that depression is never far and it is a continuous struggle to keep looking at what is pulling me and the world up… Now Bucky is truly becoming a role model for me… in all aspects… check on my blog.. there is a nice video on him…

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